Purse that I made!! 

Purse open 

Inside of purse 

::cheesy pop song!!!:::

Being bored and fidgety has made me crazy creative. I made a purse tonight! No plan, no nothin', just pulled out some fabric and went to work...and I must say, it's pretty snazzy. Very simple. But still snazzy as I made it all on my own and it actually doesn't look like complete and utter shit. And I bet it could even ::gasp:: HOLD THINGS!!!

I forgot how much I liked sewing stuff with the sewing machine. When we had sewing class in 6th grade I rocked out on the sewing machine. As much as you can rock out on a sewing machine. As much as I could rock out on a sewing machine, 'cause lets face it, at 12 years old I was really crappy at rocking out at anything.

So yes. And it's been decided that I'm going to be Supergirl for Halloween. Sweet!

And I'm thinking of painting Trogdor on whatever pumpkin we get....simply because I can make a pretty good Trogdor, I think.

Oh, you mean slutty!

This week has been ridiculously crappy. Between the traffic and my bad luck I've made it to all of - tada- TWO CLASSES so far this week. ::cries::

My radio show was asstastic due to my cohost not showing up. Which again, makes me want to cry. I like my cohost, he's cool, and one of the few guys at the radio station who has never directly or indirectly hit on me or said something chauvinistic or assholey. Hmm...now that I think about it I think I've given at least one or two people from the radio station this web address....oops...well if you're from the radio and reading this, I'm probably not talking about you.

I had the most creepy dream last night, I can't even explain it here, it's too creepy and gross and yucky. Not in an axe murderer dream kinda way, more in a ew that is so skeazy kinda way.

Alright, alright, I need to stop whining. It hasn't been that bad, compared to other things that could happen. So I need to shut up.

A good thing that happened this morning is that I woke up with my cat all snuggled next to me. That was nice. Cats make me happy.

Alright, time to stop writing. Adios.

...sung in the style of Eminem...

My titles are the most random things ever and half the time only make sense to me. Tee hee hee. And that's only for as long as I remember why I put them there.

Okay, it looks like Trash Robin Week is being directly followed by Robin's Week of Insane Rage.

First, I couldn't find my keys this morning. I look by the door where I usually throw them, I look on the couch, I look in the cushions on the couch, I look on the coffee table, the dining table, the kitchen counter even....I look on my desk, on my nightstand, under the bed....eventually I try calling my mom's cell to see if she's seen them...except leave it to my mom* to leave her cell off the one to she actually remembers to bring it out of the house. Finally after fifteen minutes or so of searching and a few frustrated primal screams I find my keys hiding under some clothes in my room. Stupid..everything.

So I bolt out the door wearing my uberugly pink chinese slippers that are too big (and only ugly 'cause I'm completely not in a big pink shoes mood today, but couldn't find any socks to wear with my sneakers) and go racing down 24. Thank goodness there were no cops around today, my ass would have been so busted. Anyway, I get to school right as my class is supposed to be starting. I'll be a few minutes late, but it's not a huge deal. Except this whole "only a few minutes late" plan only works if I can find parking. Which I can't. I drove around the parking lot for HALF AN HOUR. Seriously. AHHHHH. So by that time attempting to go to class is just kinda pointless (not to mention really embarassing), so here I am in the library annoying the girl next to me with my incessant typing.

Not to mention that while I was trying to park my mother* called to see if I could work for her today (I already told my mother* twice that I'm annoyingly busy today). Ooh, plus she drove away with my CD's and I have radio today. Okay, that's more my fault than hers as I forgot I left them in her car.

So out of the four classes I've had so far this week (keep in mind it's only TUESDAY) I've made it to exactly one. ::cries:: My GPA is going to be shit despite me actually working my ass off this semester (and getting pretty good grades). Stupid absences. Stupid school that actually cares about absences. Stupid me sleeping through my alarm way too much. ::bangs head on table::

*Alright, I'm evil and taking my bitchy mood out on my mom who didn't actually do anything except try and help me get some extra money....I should probably call and apologize...oops...sorry Mom....

::completely freaks out::

Can't sleep. Have to do a scene for Acting class in four hours, then have a paper due in English at 2:30. STRESS. I'm going to go take a shower. Then hopefully get at least a little sleep before I have to meet my scene partner. Oy. Oy.

Adventures in Uncertainty or I didn't wake up planning to be brave...

I think maybe I can get through all these times in my life where I do something I feel is maybe a little courageous and it ends up all silly by thinking about how I'll tell my kids about it someday. Someday maybe I will have a daughter, who is equally as spazzy as her mother, and I can make her feel better and braver about the world by telling her all the spazzy things I've done in my life. And how sometimes I'm the better for them. Or how sometimes I end up hiding from 3rd graders in a coat closet. But either way. I'm a little bit the better for it.

But for now I'm 19 and not anyone's mother (thank the Lord, lets keep it that way for awhile, k?) and that coat closet's lookin' pretty good right about now....

And we thought Daredevil was bad....

I Killed My Lesbian Wife, Hung Her on a Meat Hook, and Now I have a Three-Picture Deal at Disney

No wonder J.Lo jumped that ship....

So who's more original than me? Anyone? Anyone?

So if I dress up for Halloween...what should I be?

And I'm breaking out. Boooo.

..and I'm not gonna run away and hide!...

I'm lonely. Time for rambling!

I found my homecoming dress from senior year. It's so pretty! I have the urge to put it on even though I have nothing to do right now except sit around and be pretty in it. And it's all soft and velvety and slinky! Ooh, maybe if anyone does anything for Halloween I could be Jessica Rabbit, hehe. Or a slutty princess. Or I could be a princess and wear my prom dress....or not....hehe....I need more fancy places to go.

I'm bored, I'm lonely, and I'm feeling down. I'm kinda feeling like it's trash Robin week, which sucks.

Aaand I have math homework. Off I go.

Is everyone very very stoned?!?!

Have you seen the new Jimmy Dean commercials? The one with the lady in the showercap who goes "The eggs come from chickens, the milk comes from cows, and the meat, well that comes from Jimmy Dean"...yeah, that kinda creeps me out a little. 'Cause...the milk comes from a cow..but the meat doesn't, it's taken off some guy named Jimmy Dean, whoever he is...holy crap..it's people! Jimmy Dean is people!!

Yeah, that was corny. But come on...that's gross. That's just gross.

Other than that, the commercial's pretty amusing...'cause the people in it are just so bad...it's wonderful.

This is kinda interesting...

You preferred Kerry's statements 78% of the time You preferred Bush's statements 22% of the time Voting purely on the issues you should vote Kerry Who would you vote for if you voted on the issues? Find out now!

Get at me, dog....

Lines like this are why I love the West Wing:

"Well over three and a half centuries ago, sprinkling by faith and bound by a common desire

for liberty, a small band of pilgrims sought out a place in the New World where they could worship

according to their own beliefs... and solve crimes."

...And solve crimes....

I feel blechy.

Go to David's blog...he linked me...and now I'm linking him back....he's neat and fun to talk to, especially about smart people things....or about hot Asian chicks...either/or.....

Snark should totally be a word recognized in the dictionary. 'Cause it's an amazing word.

Speaking of snark, my acting teacher was snarky in his e-mail response to me about whether or not we were going to have class today. He said he might not be there, and acted like we should just show up....which I'd be okay with if I didn't have an hourish commute both ways...so I e-mailed him explaining that if he knows about class could he tell me because I would prefer not driving two extra hours if I didn't need to. And he wrote me back telling me I should just use that time to practice with my partner and that's my assignment and it's not a waste of time. Ew. Rude. I'm sorry, but acting is my first class of the day and my next class after that isn't for FOUR HOURS. I'm not going to get up and practice for four hours with my partner. That's just silly. Anyway, he didn't actually e-mail me back until way after class, so I'd already done the two hour drive. Sigh. I wasn't trying to be a slacker, just all the driving is not only a bitch but also costs me money (has the man SEEN the gas prices?!). Plus, bad for the environment. Mmhmm.

Yeah. I know. Bitch bitch bitch.

I think I had other interesting stuff to say, except that I'm really tired. So...perhaps it's time for sleeping? Eh. Probably not. G'night.

Just for everyone's future knoweledge...

The word "nipple" kinda bothers me....

He just bit his WHAT?!

Okay, this wolf show on Adult Swim is way nasty. I just saw a wolf puke. Ew. Can you imagine being the animator who had to draw a puking wolf? I mean...guh....But definitely the grossest part of the show is how they make such good use of the bone-crunching and flesh-tearing sound effects. Bleeeh. Makes me shudder. And yet I can't stop watching!

I had this scary random coughing fit today. Like when your throat has a really bad tickle that makes you cough and cough and you feel like you can't breathe. Freaked me out. Still a little freaked out over it.

Ohmehgosh....okay, someone just lost on EYEBALL on this show. Ew. Ew. Why am I watching this, ew....dude, I seriously do NOT get this show...but I HAVE to go watch the ending. Bye.


Okay, I just watched the ending. WHAT?!?!!? Ugh, someone explain what the hell that was to me, please. At least the animation was pretty....

Oxymoron sounds like a zit cream....

Did you ever have a good dream that turned out to be a really bad dream once you woke up?

Like if you had a really good friend and you got along really well and had lots of fun together, and then got in a horrible fight and didn't speak anymore and got cringey at the sound of their name. And then one night you had this nice pleasant dream about hanging out with your friend and having lots of fun and laughing and it was a great dream..until you wake up and realize you had this wonderful happy dream about this person you don't speak to anymore and are all icky towards and now you're all nostalgic and miss them while at the same time the thought of actually talking to them totally gives you the heebies? So then you spend the rest of the day feeling way funky and trying to repress said dream.

Sucks, doesn't it?

I like the word heebies. I have English in ten minutes, and I want to get some apple juice first, so off I go. Bye bye.

Daaaviiiddd

I can never tell if you're complimenting me or insulting me. Good job with that. :-P

And again, I have to talk to you through my blog 'cause you don't go on AIM. Punk. How many entries do I have now that have "David" in the title? You totally love that, don't you?

Muppets for Free Speech

Does anyone else think that when Eminem does that screaming thing in "Lose It" he sounds an awful lot like Animal from the Muppet Show?

I really disagree with Bush on this whole idea that by outlawing abortion or banning it or whatever you want to call it you'll reduce the number of abortions. If you want to reduce the number of abortions then try counseling women, showing them the variety of options they have, strongly speaking out against abortion even, but you can't just outlaw it. Say you hate it, say you think it's evil and wrong, but don't force someone's rights away. Honestly, I really don't think that outlawing abortions will simply make people stop having them. It may decrease the number of abortions in the US, but it will increase the number of unsafe abortions that can end up seriously hurting woman, more babies that wind up in dumpsters or abandoned on the street, women having to drop out of school because they can't manage going to school and having children at the same time (I know there are a lot of women who have had children and gone to school and been successful as both mothers and students, but a lot of the time that's unfortunately just not the way it works out)...and lots of other things that I'm probably not thinking of.

I've said before that personally I wouldn't want to have an abortion. But just because I wouldn't want one doesn't mean I'm going to force anyone to agree with me or to live the way I live. Isn't that the whole point of this country? People can live their lives with their own beliefs, whether everyone agrees with them or not.

Apparently it's TV day?

Also, I <3 Scrubs. Which possibly has something to do with my raging Zach Braff crush...but probably mostly to do with it being really good.

I totally have better things I should be doing with my time than watching TV all day.

..he's just sitting at the kitchen table naked...

Sigh...Gilmore Girls is so incredibly adorable. I spend my days wishing I could be that adorable and witty and wear nerdy plain clothes and still look completely fantastic. Ah well.

See, I'm so unwitty I can't even think of anything good to write about other than Gilmore Girls!

::feels special::

Hey, look at that. Check out this site: NJ.com Weblogs. I'm listed as a favorite weblog! Neat! Now I'm all proud and much too full of myself...

Ew! Spork Violence!

Someone got a spork to the hand on Conan...gross...that is all....

Hebrew School Drop-out....

Alright, I think it's time I let you all know something....

...I have a pretty steadily growing crush on Zach Braff...so if anyone can give him my number..that'd be cool...

In other news, my portable CD player's completely broken. Stupid CD Player....it's all "What? You burned a CD? That's a violation of Federal Something-or-other! Skip skip skip...I'll completely ruin the Yeah Yeah Yeahs for you, biatch!"

I used to not really like that Goodies song...but now I kinda like it...blame Z100 for playing it 387235 times in one hour. It makes me feel like Petey Pablo should be in the mafia or on the Sopranos or something, I'm not sure why.

Watched the debate tonight...I try and think how people who are undecided might be viewing things, but it's incredibly hard for me to do, which is weird because I'm usually good at looking at both sides of things. But Bush-hating and being a big ol' democrat is so much in my genetics I can't even imagine NOT thinking Bush is a big dumb stupid head. That's right. Stupid head. I could use bad words, but homeland security might come after me.

And yo, I was watching Charmed...and there's some guy on there now playing an agent investigating the sisters from homeland security! Haha! That's so amusing to me, I'm not sure why. Just...homeland security...investigating crimefighting witches....ahahaha....

Gilmore Girls is on everyday now!!!!!!! ::squeels like Martha Stewart on arts and crafts day at the jailhouse*:::

And I'm teaching Hebrew School on Sunday......did I mention I dropped out of Hebrew High? Oops..my bad...

Now I'm off to do really important stuff....like play spider solitaire...or do math homework...or something....

*where the fuck did THAT come from? How lame. Bad Robin. Bad!

..and he's not quite hip...

I feel sooooooo extra crappy. My throat's on it's 3rd day of being sore. And..boys, avert your eyes...I HAVE CRAMPS. OW.

Okay, boys, you can look now.

Plus, I'm sooo tired. Damn cold.

I did have one bit of fun today, though. On the way home I completely and totally rocked out to Offspring and Jet and it must have been hilarious for the other drivers near me who saw me singing and using the steering wheel as a drum and headbanging (as well as you can headbang while driving). It was so much fun, though! Everyone should do it. Seriously. And for some reason it made me miss Miles 'cause I could imagine being in the car with Miles and singing "Pretty Fly for a White Guy" and having it be like the best most amazing/hilarious thing EVER.

Okay, I feel so crappy. Somebody make me some tea and tuck me in. I'm beggin' you.

Do you mind if I play some Queen?

I said "herpes" on the radio today. My show is classy as hell.

Also, I got 101 on my math test!!! Yay!!! I'm so proud, I put it on the fridge. 'Cause I'm 5. But a very smart 5 year old who's good at math.

::knock on wood, Jewish spit thingy:: Yeah, that's the thing I learned from my mom or my Grandma to do to not jinx things, like being good at math. Mari knows what I'm talking about.

Mm, I'm tired and have a cold...and really need a shower, but should just go to bed 'cause I feel way yuck today.

Good plan. Okay. Good night.

I'm just sayin'....

It's a POSSIBILITY...that I maaaaay want to be a Princess for Halloween.

I completely need to go to bed now. Good night.

Nerd Alert!

Hey David (wtf, be online sometime, jeeeez), they should make a drinking game from Case Closed...first rule would be take a shot everytime someone says "Rachel, go call the police/an ambulence/etc."...that's all the girl ever gets to do!

Manipulative Bitch

1. It's frickin' COLD!!

2. I watched Surreal Life last night with BRIDGETTE NIELSON and FLAVOR FLAV.

3. K, I just said that so that people would actually read my blog today (I get so many hits when I talk about Surreal Life), which yes, I know, is kinda evil and manipulative, I apologize, but I figure if you're lookin' up Surreal Life on the internet in the first place I'm not exactly wasting much of your time here. But yes, I do this all because I have something important to say, which is this:

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY TO REGISTER TO VOTE IN NEW JERSEY (and who knows, maybe in other states, too?). Know what that means? Get on it, bitches! Go out and get your ass registered. DO IT. NOW!

K, that's it, I have to go eat breakfast or something now....bye bye.

Wooo, spacey.

I feel kinda weird. I'm all burpy and I feel weird, like if I move my head quickly it takes my eyes and my brain a little longer to catch up. That's kinda how I feel when I forget to take my medicine and I have like withdrawl kinda stuff and feel tired and dizzy all day....maybe I've grown tolerant to my meds? Maybe I have a sinus thing? Er, whatever it is, I don't like it so much.

I kinda wonder if I should try and get off the meds. I went on them not wanting to be on them forever, and even though they do help, I wonder if maybe I can be okay on my own now? I feel like maybe the meds have shown me ways I can react instead of panicking and that maybe I can learn to think that way on my own now. But that may just be me being goofy.

Or maybe I'm just PMSing.

The Parkway LIES

Yeah, so the parkway lied to me when I was driving back from the party at Linda's (Happy Birthday, Zoe! Even though I don't really know you very well at all and you totally don't read this, but you seem really nice anyway!) and told me that there was an exit I wanted...which there wasn't! It went to like Irvington, where I didn't want to go...and I got lost...and ended up Union...and was still lost...and ended up asking a very nice older Hispanic woman in the 24 hour CVS how to get home. And now I'm here. And very tired. G'night.

Debate

Seeing people say that Kerry is inconsistent or flip-flopping on his stance on the war in Iraq is really bothering me. I see nothing weak in someone, once finding out all the facts, deciding they have made the wrong decision and correcting it, rather than realizing they had made the wrong decision but stuck with it just to save face. Not only correcting it, but admitting to it, shows strong character, in my opinion. I would rather have a president who is open to the idea that he could be wrong and someone else could have a better solution. I don't feel very good at all about President Bush, who despite many facts stating there was no reason to believe Iraq had anything to do with 9/11, is still all war war war. Bush constantly gives me the impression he is not open-minded what-so-ever, which is a quality I desperately want in a president. Part of what I believe is important in a leader is an ability to accept that the world is always changing, and can accept those changes and adapt to them. Bush doesn't seem to have that ability at all.

That's all for now. I'm tired, and have a math test at 11:30. Eesh.

Answer me this....

Why WHY are my hands always cold?